Capital I

What is this song if not inspiring?
What do you think?
The tune itself is cool, but the whole story of that I just seals the deal.
We like it around here and it has, again, been playing in my head on repeat.

autumn

Today I resolved to take on our second bookcase.

It's small, and broken, and let's face it, this apartment isn't big enough for much of the stuff we own. Some of our books must move on. So in the spirit of new adventures, I resolved to take on our second bookcase.

I scanned the titles to find a place to start. There's Dostoevsky's Crime and Punishment, Chaim Potok's The Promise, Great Expectations, Jane Austen, George Orwell, and the Bible in Spanish among others. Where to begin? Crime and Punishment was the first book I can say I really relished, The Promise was that book I took off the shelves at home of my own choice and loved without anyone telling me to, Jane Austen helped me during the summer I slogged through trying not to have feelings (which was not successful. I've heard it never is), and Great Expectations accompanied a moment of true self discovery. I flipped through it's pages and found that I'd underlined a few sentences. This one in red:

"But that, in shutting out the light of day, she had shut out infinitely more; that, in seclusion, she had secluded herself from a thousand natural and healing influences..."

Which instantly got me thinking how many of these thousands of "natural and healing influences" have I been the beneficiary. And how many more might I discover in the years to come?

As you may have guessed, my resolved quickly evaporated. And there the bookcase still sits. Small, breaking, and full to the brim.

word snobbery welcome

So, here's the deal.

I love words.

Do you ever find a word you didn't know before and then try and add it to the ol' repertoire?

I do, and I've got a few up my sleeve. Not many.

But language is incredible, as you know, and I've got so much more to learn. Something I lament daily.

And so, my fellow lover of words, I've got your next podcast. I listen to it on the radio during my drive to church (it's kind of a long drive) when I get the chance. And it kept me company during the long periods of cleaning I've been doing to prepare for the move.

You should check out A Way With Words.



It's got everything. "Witty" banter, word puzzles, crazy callers, lovable hosts, a bit of cheesiness, and especially, words. All sorts. Those you may be familiar with and some you may not.

So give a listen. And let yourself enjoy it come cheesy joke, or terrible pun. You may just go back for more.

playing in my head on repeat...

Down By the Water
The Decemberists

best purchase for the month of June

Is there a reason you haven't purchased yourself a package of these Bandaid brand adhesive bandages? Because you should. They should make more of these. Totally makes having a paper slice wound somewhat fun (because we all know those are never fun).

one day, I'll finish Bleak House

Mrs. Toothsome recently posted about the BBC list of top 100 books to read. She's one of those people who always has a book in hand. An avid reader. She's a library of book reviews. Something I admire. And just because I was curious, I checked to see how many I've read, and I've got a lot to go. I've only read 29 of the 100, and I double checked and I've started but never finished four more (I'm looking at you Bleak House [insert fist pump of rage]).

I was surprised to see the first four of the Harry Potter series, and delighted to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Matilda, and The BFG. and The Twits. How awesome. It was last updated in 2004 so there may be a few I'd add to the list today.

What about you? How many have you read? What surprised you? What would you add?

we really need to hang out this summer

I wish you all could come visit my small town. I admit, I was skeptical at first. Ok, very skeptical. The icy ghost town I visited so long ago seemed daunting, even a little crazy. I remember thinking, "What are we doing here? What do we do here?"

But I'm here to tell you, folks, there is so much about this place that we're going to miss.

We began our story here. I can't believe that was just three short years ago. The shoes are long gone, and I've turned in my photos of street signs to take photos of something a little more near and dear to my heart.



Much about us has changed. But this little town hasn't, thank goodness.

There will always be a little fraction of my heart devoted to this little town: how I can see the stars at night, feel like everything is still after 10PM, share a run with a cow or two, and that just by driving down the county road among the green with all the windows down, I can forget that I just spent seven months hibernating in my home. I think I even said just last weekend, "Why would you ever move from this place?"

Oh, right... because life does go on. Go figure. (That and we did just spend seven months indoors... lest we forget).

And with that, my yearbook entry for our town:

Dear Small Little Town, don't you every change. I mean that. You rock.

among the things that are worth your time...

Folks, I'm recommending a movie.

Gasps and jokes aside (I know I'm not much of a movie buff... and I tend to mock and joke my way through most movies) I'm recommending this movie.

Which is really quite out of character for me knowing that I don't like most movies and this movie isn't perfect. There is some cheese, a few over-acted teenage angst moments (we all went through it, there is no need to embellish it, we get it), a not-so-subtle overarching theme, and a predictable plot.

But... with all that said. I really liked it. The way the story is told, the color pallet of the film (not that I know anything about film or their color pallets), and it left me happy and inspired. Ding! A recipe for success. At the end I even thought, "My future teenagers need to see this movie." (I may have been a little overenthusiastic in that comment).

It's not a new release, I realize, but well worth a moment or two. I hope you like it too.

RadioLab's most recent episode

If you haven't caught RadioLab's most recent episode, I think it's worth a bit of your time.

I was most interested in the section about mirror images, what we see in the mirror vs. what the world sees.

Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought, "Who is that person? Oh right, it's me" only to have to really sit there and convince yourself that it is indeed you in the mirror? I have. It only lasts for a moment or two and then fades. And I've actually thought quite a bit about this and how our perceptions of ourselves differ from those of others just because what we see in the mirror is just that, a mirror image. How can a mirror image be so different? It's crazy. You'll have to listen to the show.

Anyway, I think you'd like this show on symmetry. I know I've enjoyed the first half (still listening to the second).

what if you lose

This is what I've been dealing with for the past few months.

Constant condensation. Constant.

Being a desert dweller, I'm out of my element here. Where I come from, things dry out over time. Apparently, that isn't true everywhere. Especially not here on my windows... every single beloved, sunshine-bringing one.

And I'm told this is normal so I'm cool.

But I reserve the right to not like it.

resolution

Here is the tail end of my resolution list speaking for itself. That's right folks, once science thing a week.

You've been in that situation before. I know you have. You know the one where you think to yourself, "Oh, right... I keep making this mistake. Next time, I'll remember not to."

I do this all the time. But recently I've realized I keep making the one particular mistake over and over again more "over again" than the others. And that mistake is:

thinking that if a recipe asks for 1 or 2 teaspoons of "fresh lemon juice" then the whole lemon will do.

Folks, it's simply not true. There is way more juice in one lemon than 1 or 2 teaspoons. I know this. You probably know this. But each time I find myself saying to myself, "How am I ever going to use half a lemon before it spoils? What they hey, juicing the full lemon won't hurt anyone," only to be reminded moments later that yes, it does hurt the dish. Bleh.

Are there any mistakes that seem to be set on repeat for you? Coming back to jackie smaz not included.

three musts for this Valentine's Day season

I love Valentine's day.

And pun most definitely intended. I've always loved this holiday and I almost wish it was a season we celebrated all month. Reds, pinks, friends, family, loves, everything about it.

This year there are three staples for my Valentine's season. I can't wait for February one.

Ginger ale

Poppies

(blogger conveniently has a poppy pattern!)

Chocolate Covered Cinnamon Bears

What are you doing to celebrate this year? Or in other words, what foods will you be dying pink?

some things should never change

Watched this clip with my nephew over the Christmas break. Not sure who enjoyed it more, him or me.

swiftly by

I'm jumping on the quinoa bandwagon, folks. My mother-in-law has convinced me (it didn't take much convincing).

But now I need some recipe ideas. If you have one, let me know. Here we come a quinoa-ing!

we've got a smoker

I recently ventured to an antique book shop in a small town near ours. I'm not an expert in literature, ancient books, or anything old really, I just like the way the shops feel and the ambiance inside them. I also like taking a book off the shelf and thinking, "Somebody purchased this book way back when and it's been read and reread and saved until somehow it made it here." Not to mention, it's fun to read what's written inside the front cover and imagine who wrote it and why.

But on this day, I have something new to add to reasons why I love these mysterious places. As I was scanning the children's book titles (I ultimately settled on the The Story of Babar. I loved that book as a kid, but did you remember how sad it is? I didn't). Anyway, as I was getting reacquainted with the story of Babar, I hear from the front desk,

"Oh yes, we've got ghosts. Plenty of them. There are ghost throughout this place." The owner of the shop and a patron were in mid-conversation. The patron continued,

"We've got ghosts as well. A few of them actually."

"Yeah? You know, one of them here requires room in the bed and will knock you square between the shoulder blades until you give 'em a place to sleep."

"Oh really?"

"Really. And we've got a smoker."

I strained against the noise of another patron entering the shop to see if I could catch the details of this newest smoking ghost and unfortunately couldn't catch a word. But what struck me as unusual was how casually these two women were discussing their "ghosts", as if they were discussing clothing or furniture. You know, like a "We've got a really nice sofa." "Oh yeah? Me too" kind of thing. They made it sound like in order to be categorized among the cool kids, one had to have a ghost. I'll admit I even felt a little left out. But you can bet that I'll be on the lookout for my own ghost so that I'll have something to report at my next visit to the shop... you know, because anybody who is anybody has a ghost.

crimped or baked?

Dear Pasty,

You have once again lured me into ordering you and, just like last time, disappointed me. It's not that you're aren't a cherished meal, nor is it that I believe you're trying to pull the wool over my eyes. It's just, well, it's just that I'm wondering why it is that I don't like you. You seem to have it all: beef, potatoes, wrapped in a pastry, served with ketchup. This kind of thing is right down my alley. But you'll notice, I've eaten the coleslaw first... and coleslaw and I, we've never been on good terms. But when you are looming it seems we are the best of friends. So I guess what I'm saying is: I'm sending you this note to let you know. I'll order you again sometime, and please, please, please... try to be delicious.

Yours ever,
jackie

the Fix-It-Up Chappie

My friends, I think (after long consideration) it is time that I begin a new blog in addition to our dear jackie smaz. This new blog will be filled with the various and sundry adventures of, well, my family. Now, I wouldn't dare assume that you'd be interested in that kind of thing, but I thought I'd just put it out there just in case. So if you are interested, drop me a line or leave me a comment. When I've got the new blog up and running, I'll let you know.

fake smiles vs. genuine smiles

I followed this link from a friend this morning and was truly fascinated. It only takes a moment and I'd be curious about your results.

I took the survey this morning thinking I was a pretty good judge of genuine vs. fake smiles and I must say, I totally misjudged several of the smiles and ended with a 15 out of 20. A 75%. I'll admit I wasn't expecting that.

So, if you wouldn't mind and you have a moment take this short survey and tell me two things:
1. how you thought you would do, and
2. what you actually scored.

Plus, I think you'll have a bit of fun with it too.

BBC "Spot The Fake Smile" Survey

Enjoy!

rebel stripes II

Several years later, (almost as long as this second post has taken), I had almost forgotten about the notes page of my owner's manual. Occasionally I would need to look something up and I'd find it again and wonder what happened to this couple. Did they ever reconcile their differences? Was Shawn a total jerk or did he understand where this girl was coming from? Maybe it was Shawn that deserved my empathy. I had no idea, but I still wondered about them.

Until one day, I found it. It was in that hard to reach space where the glove box rubs against the part of the car that holds it there. I remember seeing it and thinking, "I've found it! The answer to all my questions!" I spent quite a bit of time trying to pry it from its place. It must have been hastily shoved in the glove box in anger. Or perhaps it was so loved that it was placed there so she could read it several times a day. I didn't know. I tried to retrieve it until my fingers ached. And slowly, eventually it was mine! It was covered with dust and grime from so many years being stuffed in corner and forgotten. It could have been a grocery list, or a phone number, but somehow, I knew it had to be the next chapter in our story. I read it with excitement:

And now a name to the mysterious writer. Tiffany. Tiffany and Shawn. Many conversations aimed at defining their relationship must have been had in this very car that I now owned. Conversations that they probably never wanted anyone to know about, and here I was, privy to just a short snippet of what they went through. I felt like I had had violated some sort of trust by entering their world without permission. But on the other hand, perhaps I was supposed to learn something from their story. I just didn't know what.

I'll admit, I had a hard time trying to decide who's side I was on. I would find myself at one point feeling sorry for Tiffany and her longing to find someone to love her for who she was, and still other times I would wonder about Shawn and if he'd every be able to trust anyone.

For many years after that, I waited for the day when I'd find an engagement ring box or a break-up CD telling me the conclusion to the story. I did find a CD, Red Hot Chili Peppers I think (Tiffany didn't do a very good job of cleaning before she traded in her car), but by the time someone turned left in front of me and our Rebel Stripes was gone forever (don't worry, all were safe and unscathed... other than my beloved car), I found nothing that ever finished their story for me.

I imagine, however, that this relationship ended and probably not easily. I imagine Tiffany thinking that a new car might be just the thing she needed--to let go of old memories and start a new life--decided it was time for a used Mercury Cougar.

But it could have been a great many things. They may have started a great life together, or slowly and amicably fell out of love and I'm curious what other people might imagine happened to these two.

What do you think? Pray, tell.